Well...

To my friends Valorona and Alanna Hecateus...

I took into mind what you said...

And even if I don't completely believe it...

I appreciate...

The fact that you guys care.

Especially since...

Everyone else I've cared about...

Has left me behind...

This time, though...

I think I can trust you two...

To not leave me...

Like everyone at school has.

Most of the people outside of school live too far away for me to take comfort... They haven't left me behind, but yet they're too far away for me to take solace in that.

But...

At least...

I think that...

You two and a few others...

Will definitely not leave me.

But I can't be sure...

So I ask that you won't leave me behind...

Like almost everyone else has.


And now, a quick story-poem I came up with while I was sitting with nothing to do a few days ago. I nearly forgot it, but I'll try to put it here. This isn't real, it's just something I came up with.


I lie on the verdant grass, watching the sky.

So beautifully blue.

Sparse clouds drift across, a beautiful fluffy white contrasting against a rich blue.

And I wonder.

How can such beauty exist in a world of such sorrow and pain?

How can it be that the sky is content to look upon this suffering world?

How can the sun shine in a way so lovely,

making the grass around me glow?

If there is so much pain in this world?

I can't understand it.

I suppose it shines for the sake of the good souls in this world.

Those who try to uplift others, those who try to save others.

And those who try to smile and say, "It'll be better." even to those who feel otherwise.

And it probably also shines for those in true love.

Those who have the kind of love in stories...

That will carry them through worlds.

Am I ever meant to feel that way?

Or will I remain here, in the part of the world where it is bright, but I am dark.

Where the sun shines, but I am a void.

Where love blossoms, but I hate.

Because I had hated so many things about this world, after everyone...

Left me.

Alone...

In the darkness...

My only lights...

In the far off distance.

And here, where the sun shines bright but I am a void...

I shed a tear.

And with it, I feel a little bit of my soul float away from me.

And I cry hard.

Letting the tears flow.

Letting my blackened soul release.

I cry for a long time.

When my eyes reopen,

The world is dark with night, but no stars have come out.

And though I released my black soul, it has come back.

And it tries to fill me back up again.

And just as I feel that it is about to overtake me again...

The first star comes out.

And I wish dearly on that star.

"Star-light, Star-bright, first star I see tonight.

I wish... that I...

Would not be alone anymore...

I wish... that I...

Could escape the darkness...

I wish... that I...

Could smile and laugh without hiding the darkness behind me.

And finally,

I wish... that I...

Could have hope that will not be dragged down.

And as my dark soul steals back into me, I feel a spark of hope.

As though the star had heard me.

And given me a piece of itself.

So that I would not become totally lost.

And maybe...

Just maybe...

I could nurture this new piece of me and the star...

Into a new me...

With little darkness.

Maybe...

Just maybe.




And that's the end. I feel not as angsty now... that's good. Please comment and tell me if it's okay... It's probably going to seem horrible when I reread it...