Friday, May 8, 2009

Who the fuck am I?

Who am I? What is my facade? My facade used to be my happy self, but now I've had to use it so much, it feels like it practically is me!

Am I the happy, cheery girl I am trying to be at school?
Am I a bloodthirsty person, like I sometimes feel?
Am I this lonely person, ignored by friends, lost in the crowd?
Am I this angsty person, lost in my hate and pain and forever almost alone?
Am I this jealous girl, always wanting to be best and often nearly willing to hurt to be so?
Am I this dreamer, lost in her fantasies, unable to change the real world?

And there's more to that, but I cut it off... cuz I didn't feel like typing more.

2 comments:

  1. You're all of them. Who says you can't be? All of those girls are a part of you. You are all of them, but you're a unique mixture that is just...you.

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... I am afraid of being alone... My black pit, my personal hell lies in wait to swallow me as soon as I give up... please say something to let me feel not so lonely....